you know what, i think i've always hated my life ... when i was younger i went to catholic school -- and absolutely hated it.  imagine 7 years of having to cope day to day with hate ... then there was senior school ... considering the quality of schooling ... no wonder there is no quality.  as for "family" -- they make me ill ... the only way i can handle family is to ignore them ... disown them...my issues have always been because of some element of family.  we used to have a small shop in what could only be said is the most dire town you could ever experience. just imagine from 11 years old, experiencing people ...chronic alcholics, drug users (i mean hard stuff), people having a bad experience and only want to give it back at you ... i absolutely hated that shop ...six years ago, i tried to get into teaching ... i suppose i went into that profession because it was a safe line of work. to be honest my main motivation was money ... i decided i would only stick at it ... if i was good at ... i discovered i was quite a natural ... judging from the feedback i received...i stuck this out for two years ...worked really hard...sacrafised time...effort....energy....everything...working only part time *teaching* "full time preparation" ... meaning all my time went to producing lesson plans and lesson materials so i could present them to the class...to cut the story short...i got back stabbed....there was no career...i totally wasted my time...afterwards...i decided i would not go back into teaching....and just get a job...any job...f***in hell ...for this reason alone i wished i never went into teaching ... trying to get a(any) full time job has been absolutely the hardest thing ... ending up with agency's cause thats the best i can get ... then getting back stabbed...again and again again ...now i've been unemployed for over year ... i cannot go back to an agency .. i hate them ...trying to get any job ...it would be far easier to get blood out of a stone....i "live" or is it barely exist in england ... this place, they make it hard for you to go forward, try to take one step, they pull you back ... its just so fixed .... so there is partially my pathetic story ... why do i share this crap story ... i don't know -- perhaps there is no one else ..i hate my life, i hate me ... i hate this country .... i don't care if you are from here ....all i wanted to go was go ...and nothing is working ... so what is the point of this life ...

eft ... i have used .... sometimes with good effect ...obviously, not today ... but nothing i seem to do is able to clear the bs .....so i am lost.....

Rob (is it Rob?)

Thank you for coming with your story and sharing it with this forum. It takes courage to step forward and share. Please don't give up. 

Have you taken all of your stories and used the Personal Peace Procedure on them? If you haven't, then that may be helpful.

Have you looked back at the times when you were a child, and felt "stabbed"? If you haven't dealt with those individual events, it would be good to deal with each of those events.

Have you done EFT with others? If you have, have you considered trading sessions with someone. I have found it helpful to have someone outside of me to help me deal with my issues.

Know there is a power within you that if you tap, will help pull you out of this. This can pass. Even though it seems so heavy--it can pass...

Sending you love,

JoAnn

"... so what is the point of this life ..."

hi robgaz, to...learn...the...only...

question...now...is...when...where

...what...and...who?

peace&love...vern

Hello

What exactly have you focused on and worked through to this point? Are you staying the course and not jumping around which is very easy to do especially when first beginning to use a self healing tool / technique and many different emotions begin to pop up and want to be paid attention to? This is very important to remain on one thing before moving on to the next so that you are sure you have broken it down and gotten rid of it so that it doesn't continue to hide somewhere, peeking in and messing other sessions up.

Are you working on the emotions them self or on the situations and incidents that you have encountered in life?

Sorry to ask you so many questions but this will help you to design a plan to target and go after with your efforts to resolve these issues that are holding you back in the past and keeping your attitude stuck in the hating mode which isn't going to help you at all with life today or in the future.

I would like to suggest that you start with ...

ET I have SO MANY f***ing issues I don't even know where to begin or how to make them better ... I deeply and completely accept my self and all my emotions and feelings anyway

And then next to move on to ...

ET I am filled with much hatred for everyone and everything in my life as far back as I can remember and can't let it go ... I deeply and completely love and accept this hatred for all it's done for me over the years and now choose to breathe and relax as I allow the shift of change

I trust that this will help guide you on your journey to healing. I'd be interested to hear of your experience with this if you don't mind sharing.

In Peace, Kathleen

In Peace, Kathleen

 @Joann

Hi there,  thank you for taking the trouble to reply to my post.

As you might be able to tell, I am little bit lighter now and not so agressibe to myself as I wer the day I posted in this thread originally. Thanksto EFT I am starting to regain my balance again, becoming more productive and functioning quite normally or as well as can be.  to tell you the truth, there is no one in my social circle who i believe would want to do EFT, i am practically sure they would see it as too wacky and total BS .. but you and I know differently.  Mind you, its what I thought originally when I first discovered EFT. I made a list of all those events/memories that made a "hate list"  example: this hate X feeling.  and I would tap on that as described in the personal peace instructions up to 10 times and yes, there has been a significant difference in my thinking and i haven't keep up with personal peace.  I have though with affirmation + EFT  .... thats what i seem to automatically concentrate on. 

Thank you for recommending the personal peace procedure.  I should really continue with it.

Peace, 

Robert.

Robert,

Good for you!!! I am so happy to hear that you are using the Personal Peace Procedure. It is nice to see your picture, too.

I am sending you healing energy, and when I see your picture it helps me imagine you more easily.

Know that what you have been going through is like Winston Churchill said, "When going through hell, keep going" (or something like that). You may want to look in your area to see if there are any EFT Circles... Usually they are on a sliding scale. It is a way to get help from group energy while learning EFT. If you don't have Gary Craig's EFT videos, you may find someone who will let you borrow them or make you a copy.

Take time everyday to day dream about the life of your dreams. Imagine how you will spend your time; the kind of work you will be doing; the kind of friends that support you in what you want to do; a loving relationship...whatever you want. Imagine it with positive emotion. Whenever a negative thought or feeling comes up--this is good--because you can use EFT to clear it. Think BIG!!!

Light and Love,

JoAnn