I recently tapped on something that seems to be a major issue.
I have experienced resistance to change before but this time something strange happened. Instead of feeling an emotion, I felt as if electricity was going through certain paths of my body especially my arms and my chest. I started curling up, pushing my shoulders on the inside exactly as I used to stand as a child as a reaction to that current. The more I was tapping on positive resolutions or emotions the stronger the current became. Tapping on the negative emotions helped weaken the current instead. I tap regularly and I have made leaps in my therapy thanks to EFT yet I have never experienced anything like this before.

The issues I was tapping on are related to personal and financial success. 

My father told me a number of times as a child and teenager that he had failed my education and my mother threatened me that if I did not study enough I would end up behind the cashier of a supermarket.

I felt both my parents had failed me as a person (as a creation you can fail). I have this lingering belief that I cannot have success if I am my parents' failure. It is just impossible and I should not contradict them. It is forbidden or else...

My parents divorced when I was 8 and that too made me feel like a failure. My parents had failed their marriage that meant to me I was the cause of the failure or the failed marriage itself. When I say I, I mean the child back then.

I also was tapping on the idea that I did not have to feel like I was my parents but I could love them and be separate from them. I also tapped on the right to be autonomous and no longer depend on them financially and the right to have success in spite of their divorce and their feelings of failure.

I don't remember when electricity started feeling so unbearable that I curled myself up. I can still feel it in my upper arms, my chest and my tongue as writing this post.

Have you heard of such phenomenon? If so, what does it mean?

Thanks a lot.

Hi Uhu,

I haven't some across this before. Can you describe the strength of the electric current? Could it have been really strong energy or do you think it might be physical? If you are worried you could go to your doctor.

Locating this major issue is great, you see the resistance and the conflict about being successful which seems to be making your entire system recoil. "I started curling up, pushing my shoulders on the inside exactly as I used to stand as a child as a reaction to that current." When you say how "I used to stand as a child in reaction to that current" Are you referring to the same type of current or something different? What does the current mean to you?

UHU:

I felt both my parents had failed me as a person (as a creation you can fail). I have this lingering belief that I cannot have success if I am my parents' failure. It is just impossible and I should not contradict them. It is forbidden or else...

I think this belief is what is behind you reacting to tapping on personal and financial success.

1. It does not feel safe

2. You do not have their permission

3. Do you feel deserving?

Can you rate the truth in all of these and start tapping. What would the consequences be if you were successful? What are the advantages/disadvantages?

What feels unbearable to you Uhu? What could the electricity/current be symbolic of? It could also be massive psychological reversal, try and rub the sore spot when you feel this way. Curling yourself up (like in the foetus position) is comforting to you and it's also protective in nature. What do you need to protect yourself from? Do you have comfort in your life? is this also something you could tap on?

All the best

Noreen.

UHU,

Thanks for reaching out to the forums.  I've had a number of clients who have reported similar feelings when tapping on deep issues.  Keep in mind that EFT is an energy psychology technique.  I believe that what your experiencing is the sense of energy in your body.  Here's a couple of suggestions:

1) Try a more gentle approach.  The curling up reaction sounds like there are parts of you that feel like you're trying to change before they are ready.

2) Tap on feeling love and compassion for that 8 year old even though he feels like a failure re: the divorce. Try statements like: Even though I have this 8 year old inside who feels like a failure because he couldn't keep my parents together, I'm willing to treat this part with love and compassion anyway.

3) After the child part feels safer and more listened to, then I'd suggest working on the limiting beliefs you heard from your parent like the one about being stuck as a cashier.

Blessings,

Paul

UHU:

My parents divorced when I was 8 and that too made me feel like a failure. My parents had failed their marriage that meant to me I was the cause of the failure or the failed marriage itself.

Deborah Donndelinger does some wonderful Family Matrix work around freeing children from this kind of belief. If the Marriage was a Mistake then the Children are a Mistake Can you see yourself as the product of your parent's love, in creating you, rather than as their failure to continue that love?

Perhaps, as this is very powerful work, you would benefit from having someone like Deborah to guide you through it in a gentle and compassionate way. Whenever I've encountered physical sensations like buzzing or current running through the body, it has accompanied a strong and deep release, either in myself or my clients. It usually passes quite quickly and never lasts more than a day. Does this fit your experience?

You could tap on "Even though I don't know what this electricity feeling is all about, I am open to having clarity"

How does the electricity feeling feel? Tap for "Even though I have this electricity in my upper arms, chest and tongue and I don't know what it's all about and it's making me feel [anxious/scared/excited/curious/frightened etc], I deeply love and trust my body's inner wisdom to handle this energy for my highest good"

with love

Marian

If the electricity feeling could talk, what might it be saying to you?

 Hello Noreen

 Hello Paul,

Thank you for your encouragement and thank you for this insightful reply.

2) Tap on feeling love and compassion for that 8 year old even though he feels like a failure re: the divorce. Try statements like: Even though I have this 8 year old inside who feels like a failure because he couldn't keep my parents together, I'm willing to treat this part with love and compassion anyway.

Sounds really interesting. I will do that. It is something my psychologist has told me but I don't see how I can become autonomous as an adult without disturbing the inner child.

How can I set free the adult without setting free the inner child?
I would like to have your point of view on that.

Blessings to you to,

UHU
PS: I am a woman

Hello Marian,

Thank you very much for your reply.

Can you see yourself as the product of your parent's love, in creating you, rather than as their failure to continue that love? 

It seems impossible to me to feel that way right now. I just did not make a difference between myself and my parents as a child. I took all their feelings for me. I am changing. I am very afraid of becoming autonomous or a part of me is. By autonomous I mean having my own identity, my own wants and desires and completely accept and support them. There is a part of me who wants to live this trauma for ever. There is another one who hates me for keeping me in this trauma and not making advances even though I am making a few. The hate is very strong. It is all very confusing but I think I am on to something.

Perhaps, as this is very powerful work, you would benefit from having someone like Deborah to guide you through it in a gentle and compassionate way. Whenever I've encountered physical sensations like buzzing or current running through the body, it has accompanied a strong and deep release, either in myself or my clients. It usually passes quite quickly and never lasts more than a day. Does this fit your experience?

 The current stopped after the tapping. I tapped on a similar issue the next day and the current was much lower. I have someone who is helping me and I really like her work. I don't want to change right now. She is doing EFT with family constellations and I am certain she has helped me get where I am now.

How does the electricity feeling feel? Tap for "Even though I have this electricity in my upper arms, chest and tongue and I don't know what it's all about and it's making me feel [anxious/scared/excited/curious/frightened etc], I deeply love and trust my body's inner wisdom to handle this energy for my highest good"

I will defenitaly try that as well. It is a mistery to me and I love misteries. I think it is a great idea.

lots of love,

UHU

• Hi Uhu, I recognise the physical sensations that you are experiencing as I get them myself. I know at first it's quite an odd feeling , but as Paul pointed out, E.F.T is an energy medicine which works partly through the bodies electrical system, so perhaps it's not that surprising that it can cause feelings such as these. I too was a bit alarmed when I first started using E.F.T and had all these strange physical sensations, but someow I knew that it wasn't anything to worry about. I've since realised that I' a very kinesthetic type of person whee physical sensation is a major sense for me, perhaps this is also true for you. Now that I've been doing E.F.T for 2 years, I'm quite used to it, in fact I use these sensations as guidance, if I get strong buzzing or tingling( in my case it's usually in my feet and in the cavity behind my nose) I know I'm onto something. Please don't worry, The sensations should lessen once you've worked through some of the issues which have the strongest emotional 'charge' for you. Warm regards, Estella

 Hi Uhu,

Your answers are a treasure chest of tapping phrases. For example:

Even though I have been waiting for some permission or acceptance and maybe consideration from people who do not even exist any more (you could do some matrix reimprinting here, you'll find lots of info on this site about it),I chhose to give myself some of the permission I need to be who I want and choose to be

Even though I deserve to be smart but that's about it. That is very frustrating. I would like to be the one who decides how much I deserve, I am willing and open to the possibility that one day that can and will happen

Even though a part of me is afraid to contradict my parents, to become 100% financially and emotionally autonomous. I have also felt that I would not be loved anymore if I succeeded, maybe I can become 50% successful and keep some of my parents love and find love in me and others to make up for the loss

Even though something feels unbearable It seems it has to do with love and vital energy and exchanging with the outside world but that's all I know, I love and accept myself (Tap on this something may come up)

Even though it seems I am afraid of violence, disapproval, unacceptance and loss of love but it is still foggy, I accept how I feel about all of this (Same here, tapping on this may bring something specific up)

Even though I cut myself from others a lot because__________I love and accept myself anyway

I meant rub the sore spot instead of the karate chop point to correct for psychological reversal as sometimes it is more effective.

Hope this helps

Noreen.

 Hello Noreen,

You bet it does! Thank you for this fantastic post. I am going on holiday. I will print this whole conversation and will tap on everything that was recommended here and I will write down what happens and let you know when I return. I think it can be a fun learning experience.

I got very sick two days after this electric sensation. I have generalized candida infection. I  had never had it so bad. I am wondering if the two things are related.

Take care,

UHU

 Paul,

 I must tell you. I have experienced a major breakthrough. I have done every tapping recommended on this post. They have all helped but your recommendation to 

successfuleft:

Tap on feeling love and compassion for that 8 year old even though he feels like a failure re: the divorce. Try statements like: Even though I have this 8 year old inside who feels like a failure because he couldn't keep my parents together, I'm willing to treat this part with love and compassion anyway.

You were right. I had this 8 year old part of me that was resisting but very quickly I sent it back to what I call the "infinite of possibilities" or "infinite potential". It is a place beyond the Matrix as I understand it where all is love and my eight old inner part just became love, forgiveness and understanding and said to my adult part that it was OK to let go. It was great but it did not stop there.

I then came in contact with the rebel. It is an identity that I have developped when I was 15 and reached maturity at 23. I used it to help me but it kept me apart from the World. I aslo realized that much of that identity was not mine but the one of my mother. I used the same tapping technique but on the rebel this time. It was much harder to connect gently to a part of me that is so defensive but I think that I have, partially at least.

I have been usin Bach flower remedies all the way and they have helped me tremendously. Also I wen to visit my mom last Summer and I saw how much of her own tyrant had stained me. I made it my own and became the rebel. The rebel screams, does not allow emotional closeness, does not allow self-acceptance....and does not how to respect or love herself well.

All I know is when I came back home I was a new me. I decided to break the heritage of my female ancestors. I understood my mom became a rebel and a tyran like her own mom, etc. for generations. I forgave her too.

I remember thinking in the train back home. Now I break the vow that unites me with my female ancestors. Their heritage dies with me. It felt wonderful. I don't see my boyfriend the same way. I am not afraid as much. I just love my new me.

So THANKS A MILLION TO EVERYONE WHO HAS REPLIED TO MY POST