Hi Soobie,

I have been catching up with all your postings and you have had some wonderful advice from some wonderful people Sylvia and Sangeeta.

 Your feelings around the 'Hospital' are a good place to try out the Movie Technique, as its a safe environment and technique to use if you use it in the way it is described.

You have a lot of ' sadness' you say understandably,is there anything you can see at the moment that you could possibly look forward to ..any glimmer..even the smallest thing?

Don't blame yourself for hiding your unhappiness Soobie,a lot of this would have also been a selfless act of not showing how you feel in front of people, you are obviously a warm and loving human being that shine through your postings as does your strength of character.

If you have any feelings though of ' guilt' or ' blame' these would be good totap on.

Your interest in muscle testing..I have the same muscle tester as Sylvia and only wished I had got one sooner because I never considered myself good at testing or trusting my instinct where this particular model takes the fear of that away.

To reiterate Sylvias advice you can do a sway test which is easy enough and there are many other forms ofmuscle testing but it is if you feel comfortable trusting the answers.

I nearly always get a great response..sigh..on the chin or under nose point and its great to know when you get a comfort point.

I was training a hypnotherapist yesterday who is also a TFT Practitioner who said these points in TFT are also for P R at a second level, I haven't heard that before but hes going to bring me some information on it.

Warmest wishes,

Marie

 Hello Soobie,

I empathize with your post, as I have been through similar phases myself.  I know how much effort it takes to keep working on yourself, so I applaud your strength and persistence. Sylvia and Marie's posts are so warm, useful and supportive, that I am sure not only you, but the many others who read this thread are encouraged to continue working on their challenges.

Your statement " I was responsible for becoming depressed because I was always looking at the bright side and I suppressed my negative feelings." caught my attention.

Caregivers frequently lack the strength, energy and time to allow themselves the liberty of fully experiencing and venting their own emotions.  Perhaps the following set up statements would be helpful:

"Even though I have been suppressing all my negative feelings, I give myself permission to acknowledge my sadness now"

"Even though I have been too scared to accept the depth of my sadness and fears, I am safe and can cope now"

"Even though I have been pretending to be happy, it is safe to relax and permit myself real happiness."

The Choices Method may be most suitable for the above, that is 3 short-cut rounds for each set up, the first using a negative reminder phrase, the second the positive reminder phrase and the last using alternate negative and positive reminder phrases. 

Baerbel Froehlin's article- "Love that about myself" in the latest newsletter is also likely to help. 

I know it must look like a huge forest from your perspective, but please keep going "one tree at a time"!  

Best Wishes,

Sangeeta

This is amazing support, thank you everyone.  This currrent bout with anxiety is down (at least for now).  I'm intending to keep tapping on this experience I've been through with much of what has been suggested here.  I can't say thank you enough.

I have lots of issues to work on and I feel like I can actually start to work at some of them now!  I might even go so far to say that I'm looking forward to getting at these issues which are stealing my joy.

The lack of a SUDS level is still a hinderance, and I don't know enough about the muscle tester thing, but as I go through Sangeeta's manual, I can certainly pick up on issues and rate them with something like 'this is very true for me in my experience'.

Would any of you have some guidance for me regarding my procrastination/ inability to make decisions?  I have such a hard time dealing with paperwork, house business etc.  I think I do it because many issues just disappear with time, but many small issues also become big problems.  For many things, I just don't feel capable, but I'm also aware that I'm really scared to make the wrong decision.  Decision making makes my mind fuzzy just like the anxiety does, which is probably why I procrastinate instead.

Logically, I must be at least a little capable because we're all still here. Fed and housed and clothed.  Inside I feel heart palpatations at the thought of submitting simple insurance claims.  

I have difficulty deciding trivial things, like what to wear.  I'm no fashionista and I don't care much at all about what people wear, but still, I have a lot of difficulty with even simple stuff like that.  A lot of times when I do make a choice, I'll worry at it endlessly, like when I bought a car, I tormented myself that I should have chosen a different color.  My car is already 3 years old and I'll still think about that.

I don't understand myself about this because I've experienced so many life and death matters, that I know the truly important things are loving one another and what stems from that.

Thank You and I wish everyone a good day! 

 Hello Soobie,

I am glad your anixety is down at the moment.

Regarding procrastination, I recalled a person having similar problems as you have described in your last post. With tapping, we unpeeled the layers, leading back to her decision to try for a child.  Unfortunately, she had a condition which made her pregnancy very difficult and the child died in utero.  She  belongs to the medical profession and as it turned out, her "self-talk" was that "she should have known better, now her decision making abilities can never be trusted."

After tapping for this particular event, she changed completely and has gone on to be far more confident and active than before.

Perhaps you may also have a similar pattern?  Whether it is justified or not, there may be some point at which you feel responsible for "having made the wrong decision" leading to the present anxiety.  If you can think of some event like this, you could tap on it. 

You could also tap on positives, like: 

"Logically, I must be at least a little capable because we're all still here. Fed and housed and clothed."

Other setups to improve your confidence: 

"Even though I may have made some mistakes in the past, I love, forgive and accept myself"

 "Even though I am afraid of making the most trivial choice, I accept I am human.  It is ok to learn through trial and error".

"Even though I don't want the responsibility of making any more choices, I choose to do the best I can."

Best Wishes,

Sangeeta

 Interesting.  I've brought to mind now a past incident where I made a bad choice when I was younger.  I don't know if it's 'the one', but I do know I beat myself up about it when I think of it.

 I'm finding this so helpful, thank you.  And I want to comment that you have an amazing gift of gentle kindness.

 Thanks Soobie :)  Keep us posted on your progress.

 Best Wishes,

 Sangeeta